White hair

I've had white hair for about eight months now and I still forget I've got it.  That I cut my hair I can't forget since I love not having it always in my face.  But there are, I've realized, more downsides than upsides to short hair.  For instance, every morning, my hair has bed head - in classic style.  Every angle and sticking up hideously.  That never happens with long hair.  Also, there is only one style now for my hair and it gets boring, seeing, combing, creating the same look every day.  With long hair, I had options.  I may not have utilized them very often and been quite boring in my day to day existence with long hair, but there was always that opportunity, just waiting.  So, I've decided to let it grow again, which will be hell of course to get through certain stages.  And I'll have to decide how long is long - just all one length but ending at my chin?  Or my shoulders?  And will I keep it white.  I've always felt that long hair doesn't do white well and tfor me, part of cutting it all off was going white.  Now, I long for the length but am learning how to live with the white and I'll see what long does.  I don't feel I can go back to color, of course, right now, I can't afford it even if I wanted to so white it remains until employment happens.  And then, once established, changing something as radical as a haircolor, particularly from white to color, will be awkward.  For who I ask myself?  But, first to let it grow and then to determine how I feel about the color or absence.  Of course, if the absence of men continues then it doesn't take a genius to deduce that men want, more than anything, to live in a fantasy that says the woman on his arm is younger than him and indeed, younger than her own age.  That is what color does.  I do feel I look either, my age or older but that is mostly because so many of both genders color their hair for so long (into their 60s/70s) that having white hair in my 40s just lumps me automatically a few decades ahead of myself.  The whole issue is one I feel interested to continue living through and the start happens with not buzzing it again.  Of course, unique to me, is that I have three competing cowlicks at the crown of my head.  The lack of weight from long hair allows each to express its opinion about the direction of the many short hair strands.  Altogether, not a good look.  On the plus side of the whole white hair experience, I have discovered the joy of wearing color.  No longer the gothic all black - it is too severe with the silver hair.  So reds, pinks, orange, green, etc - all part of the new wardrobe, the new look, the emerging essence of beingkmy.