Post interview blahs I am fighting

So another interview has come and gone. I think it went well. They asked about my references, that is a good sign. So I went home and enjoyed a lovely dinner with my mother, still cresting the wave of adrenalin and enthusiasm I had worked up to 'sell' myself. And this morning came the crash. The whole process of applying, getting a call, visiting, researching, idea creating, answering questions, being my best self, telling and re-telling my 'story' is tiring. It can even be demoralizing as I chew over answers, think of better examples, pray for compassion. And I know that I now have to wait, for days, while they consider, interview others, do their own research. I wish them well. Because it and they and I are all part of a dance really. I am trying to learn the steps. This protracted experience of job seeking, like spraining my ankle earlier this year, is offering me something new. I try to step back from the process and appreciate this learning because it is real and also it helps me appreciate just how lucky I have been through my career so far. I have always landed on my feet, got the right job, walked into the perfect situation or talked a situation into going my way. And that has meant that I assumed life would always be like that, that my skills and talents, enthusiasm and ideas would keep me on the hot list, make sure I got the job. I can talk, no one who knows me will doubt that. So, finally, I am somewhere where all the talk in the world doesn't seem to be offering me a tipping point into paid employment. Which is leading me, as I fight the desire to sink into a depressive, funky state, to consider self employment, starting a new business, retraining in something altogether different. I'm still exploring - it is what I have the time to do just now! I want this time to be a blessing, an awakening and staying positive is half the battle. Beingkmy and using this blog are helping. And if you know of anyone who wants to hire an organized community builder with networking skills, write me today! Another plus of unemployment is that I get to go skiing tomorrow on the fresh snow falling today!